All's I'm Sayin'...

Hey guys--

I specifically wanted to share this little gem that I found with those on this journey with me... A little history first: I feel that it is really important for me to be completely open and honest with all of you about my journey and my issues with food. I want you to know that I struggle, too. Lately, I have had this one-day-a-week situation. ABout one day a week for the last 3 or so weeks I have a day where I just feel that "urge" all day. And I have given in.


Today was one of those days. I was feeling a little anxious because of the response of my posting a "before" and "after" picture, as I am trying to reach out and help others to make changes in their lives. I think the pressure got to me in realizing that there are a lot of people now looking to me for motivation and to lead and guide them to optimal health. And the truth is: I am still a food addict. It's really not based on taste, it's based on a habit formed over a lot of years of emotional eating. But there is a happy ending to this story: For one, I have felt that urge ALL week, and through that WHOLE week, I have only "given in" twice. Thats a lot of other time that was spent NOT giving in. For two, the last time I binged, it was a take-the-rest-of-the-night off situation. And I felt awful the next day and literally cried for hours.


The difference is: last time, I got OFF the bus, took a stroll around a dangerous town, but then I got back on, just like I knew was the safe thing. Today, I only stuck my head out for a second and then I quickly evaluated what was going on before it got too far, and I brought my head back in. After about 10-15 minutes only. Did I eat something I regret? Yes. Am I going to eat things the rest of the night that I know I will regret? No. In fact, I will be eating another Medi fast brownie tonight for my last meal.


Friends: it's little changes a little bit at a time. I found this quote about compulsive eating that I want all of you to print and POST somewhere or put it in your food journal ok?




"Next time you have a compulsion to eat something that you know will trigger your eating disorder, remember, “I’ll never regret what I don’t eat… This is just a compulsion, it’s strong,  and it’s hard, but I’ll never regret not letting it have control. I might regret if I do give this compulsion control.” That’s why it’s so hard. Compulsions feel as though you can’t make an alternate choice. They feel as though that’s the only choice. But it’s not. It’s not about willpower, it’s about knowing that this strong feeling is only temporary. You can sit with the fear of regret. And you won’t actually feel regret about choosing not to eat something that feels unhealthy or feels as though it might trigger a binge."